No Thinking Allowed

Day 6 (Sunday)

Still ups and downs today. Obsessive behavior, trying to keep it under control but temptation is always there . . . so back to the television, back to the distractions. Keeps me from thinking.

Ideally, tomorrow will bring a call from the psychiatrist, and the opportunity to move forward with professional help.

I’m looking forward to my days off. Tuesday and Wednesday . . . I don’t know what I’m going to do those days, but I’m imagining a beach, the sea breeze, and freedom from myself, my thoughts, my mistakes, my problems.

Freedom from the reality that right now, the only thing holding me together is a 6-year-old teddy bear.

IMG_4280 (2)


2 thoughts on “No Thinking Allowed

Now that you've read my thoughts, what are yours?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s